I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of going through prior notebooks and notes trying to figure out what went wrong. I just want to do this!! I’m so much more than my weight and I remember being younger and just completely enjoying everyday. What happened to that person? I can’t believe that growing up and maturing takes all the fun out of life. While I’ve never been a social butterfly, I do remember going to concerts, events and even the movies by myself. I wasn’t sitting in front of the TV wasting my life away. What am I sitting here waiting for?
I hate all these sugar laden foods that have caused me this heartache. All these fatty non-healthy foods that have created this insulated shell around who I really am. I do.
It’s the fault of these momentary pleasures that I have not made longterm memories because of the years I have wasted. I don’t even want to count the years I’ve wasted. Maybe I needed to.
