I faced the scale today. 265.8
Not happy, but no one to blame but myself. I was watching a Ricky Gervais comedy special last night and a portion of his routine was about how people say obesity is a disease…. of course he was poking fun at it… and I did chuckle with it, but I have mixed feelings.
I’m intelligent, I successfully function in society, I know right from wrong… why can’t I master THIS??? It’s just food. Its. Just. Food.
I’ve rejoined a challenge on Nutrisystem — Interestingly enough it’s called “Turning Over a New Leaf” — how’s that for duplicate meaning? I an hoping that by having something to keep me accountable, I’ll do better since I’m no longer checking in with Mom.. and Sunday AM weigh-ins with Leah have kinda fallen by the wayside. I’ve eaten everything in site for the past couple months and I feel horrble. Sluggish, blobby, sick. Yesterday I ate an entire bag of those Tostito Pizza Rolls…. after I had a Big Mac Value Meal. I’m totally eating out of control and I know that. I need to get my brain chemicals back in order. I know I do a lot better once I’m back into controlled eating for 3 days. Usually takes a few days.
Hopefully come Wednesday, I’ll be feeling more in control.
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Stick with it!! Yes, it’s JUST food but it has an incredible power. Start by NOT buying the tostito pizza rolls again. Never. Even in moderation they stink and let’s face it, who COULDN’T eat a whole bag of those! Don’t buy them. I had to stop going to McD’s too. I love it too much. Have you ever looked up the nutritional stats on a Big Mac? Even for just a little old cheeseburger that I used to eat 3 of? It’s insane. Easier said than done but change your way of thinking. If it were easy, we’d all be skinny, right?
I found you through the Fall 15 challenge. I have a healthy recipe blog and a dieting blog if you want to check them out. Stay positive!!
WRITE IT DOWN! Journal every morsel you eat. Yes, it’s a pain, but do it for a week. Once you are more aware fo all that goes into your mouth, you will make little changes. Grab a handful of carrots when you feel the need for pizza rolls or something.
I look forward to seeing an improvement form you next week! You can do it!!!
Getting your eating under control is definitely a hard feat! I know I have battled with myself for many years. I follow the Weight Watchers program, and for me it works. It is teaching me to make healthy choices, portion control, how to fit in my “indulgences” and most of all support. I hope that you have a solid support system to lean on.
Hi Jen, I’m Karen and I’m also participating in the PS Bloggers Fall 15 challenge. I can only second what other commenters said: don’t buy the food you shouldn’t eat at all or cannot eat in moderation. Say no in the grocery store. That’s a whole lot easier than saying no when the food is in your fridge just waiting for you to grab it.
I would also suggest journalling what you eat. I follow Weight Watchers so journalling my food is something that comes with the program for me, and I can only recommend this. Even if you don’t eat the way you should, write it down. It helps hold yourself accountable and to find out what you need to cut down on.
As for the ‘it’s just food’? See, I don’t think it’s just food. For most people who have weight problems, the issue goes far deeper than the surface. It’s not just food, the food has become a vehicle for them (myself included) to cope with certain emotions or moods. It has become a tool to make ourselves feel better and it shouldn’t be.
Maybe consider joining WW or use an online website to journal your food, such as SparkPeople. That will give you a frame of reference in terms of how much you can eat, and within that frame you can also eat pizza, a burger or whatever. It just means having smaller meals for the rest of the day. That is something that helped me enormously, being able to eat what I want, just having a maximum of points that I need to stick to.
Well, I’d love for you to check out my blog! I would love for us to exchange comments and advice if you like. My blog is still relatively new so I always welcome new readers who support me, and I them in return. I hope this will be going well for you and the contest will help you get back into the right mindset to lose weight.
It might be “just food”, but it’s also “just everywhere”! It’s hard. Have a great week!
Jenni (fellow plus size blogger)